We all struggle finding the motivation to eat healthy and keep on top of our fitness regimes. I’d like to believe even the #instafit ladies (those girls who champion #strongisthenewsexy with the big round booty’s on IG) do too. However all I see is super fit women posing with abs of steel and buns that could crack nuts. There is so many motivational and inspirational Instagram pages that I once loved but now hate. Why? Because I’ve lost all motivation and i’m really struggling to get it back.
Last week I found myself looking for some online motivation i.e. a motivational blog post from a woman juggling life but managing to achieve her fitness/health goals. I know this is very specific, but all i could find is women at the top of their game with super toned abs. I know it takes a lot of hard work and dedication to achieve this (i’ve been there), but I was looking for more than that. I wanted to read about someone’s journey working on their health and fitness goals and sharing the real struggles along the way. If you have come across stories like this, then please do share the links below.
This is the reason why I’ve decided to write this blog post. I was known for being ‘addicted’ to fitness at one point, but now it’s a different story. Whilst Instagram makes you see health and fitness through tunnel vision, I want to share the bigger picture. Keep reading to find out why.
For years I’ve been getting up at 5:30/6am to hit the gym before work and exercising at least 6 times a week (sometimes twice a day). I was determined and dedicated with an incredible amount of energy. At this point I was looking at the #instafit girls for more motivation and gym techniques. It worked. Until life got in the way around four months ago.
This was my shape last year in Vegas. I had to work so hard for this body, but i felt a sense of achievement getting into this bikini.
I started to feel unwell and exhausted everyday. To the point I was sleeping wherever I could, I felt nauseous, emotionally unstable, my hair was thinning, my skin was super dry and I craved really naughty food and eat it because my body had to have it. I had no idea what was wrong with me. My motivation had gone and my gym routine had disappeared. I tried to go at least 1-2 times a week but even that was a struggle. Eventually i cancelled my monthly gym membership because I didn’t have the energy to go and (of course) I started gaining weight.
I found out I have Hypothyroidism (under-active thyroid), a chronic condition where your thyroid gland doesn’t produce enough of the hormone thyroxine. I won’t bore you with the details, but it basically means i will have to be on tablets for the rest of my life and i will always struggle with my weight. I’ll do another post focusing on this if you would like me to? Tweet me or drop me an email. For now I just wanted to share with you why I lost my mojo for health and fitness. My illness isn’t life threatening, but it has affected my life in a huge way. I guess my dream of becoming a bodybuilder is shattered (I’m just kidding).
In addition to this my whole life routine changed, I changed jobs, my commute to work is longer, I started my blog and youtube channel and got comfortable in my relationship. All contributing factors to weight gain.
I gave up on my health and fitness completely. What was the point? If I’m going to find it so hard to shift weight then why would I bother putting in the effort?
This was the negative thoughts that entered my mind constantly.
This weekend I realised something, I was angry at everything and everyone else for my negative energy. It’s not Instagram’s fault, nor the #instafit girls or online blogs, it’s mine. I can’t ask the online world to give me motivation, this has to come from me.
So I’ve decided enough is enough. It’s time to get my life and body back in shape and I hope i can help you too.
The above image was taken a few months ago when I was struggling but slightly active. Would you think this? This is proof that sometimes it’s a mental block you need to overcome as well as physical one. Life is a constant struggle but if you set goals you will achieve them.
I’m taking charge of my life now and so should you. Let’s get our bikini bodies back and do it together!
My next post will be on healthy snacks to help you start your journey.
Have you been in a similar position? I would love to know. Tweet me or email me.
I look forward to hearing from you.
Love CJ x